I heard this Trace Adkins song on the radio (I've been in a country mood lately), downloaded it to my IPOD and have listened to it approximately four billion times on the way to and from work. I used a clip from the song to make a sappy little slideshow so that I could get it out of my system. And so of course, I'm inflicting it on you.
The thing is, even with all of the stressful stuff going on in our lives right now, this is still an incredibly sweet, satisfying time. My kids still think I'm awesome - they haven't yet decided that I'm clueless and uncool. My son loves me passionately - so much that he likes to wrap himself around my shoulders like my very own fur coat, hanging out there until I make him climb off. My husband still teases me and makes me laugh and can make almost anything better just by wrapping his arms around me. (Forgive the cliche. It's just - true.)
I feel so lucky, and yet I also feel like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop. Because I never thought I would have any of this. (Maybe that's why I had such a hard time growing up - so that I would be able to really feel what a miracle it is to have a loving family.) And everyday that I still have it? Feels like a pretty dang good day.
(You might not want to watch if you're feeling cynical. Or mean. Mean people shouldn't watch. Only - highly emotional moms and maybe dads who keep realizing that, holy crap, my kids are going to be grown up TOMORROW. So the audience is - a little limited.)
P.S. Yeah, I only included the nice moments. I didn't think a slideshow of me ordering them to their room repeatedly, or the times when my husband and I argue (WHAT? That NEVER happens) would be all that fun to watch. (Hmmm... Actually, that might be MORE fun to watch.)
P.P.S. I'm only leaving the slideshow up for a couple of days. Because of stalkers and their scary stalking ways. Not that I have any stalkers. That I know of. (I guess if I knew about them they wouldn't really be stalkers, right? Or would they? I'm all confused now.) Anyway, my husband has many guns, internets. And he's trigger happy.